With one more day left till the anniversary of the very long and tragic day that happened one year ago, I will continue to share my crazy thoughts.
A poem
The scars I carry are haunting
They pick at my heart like an ache that can’t be soothed.
For years I locked up my secrets
Fearing the truth would condemn me.
Voices lurked in the background
Always picking at me, questioning my sanity and motives
For years the scars festered
But I held on and kept them soothed
The pressure of the voices and talking got worse and I cracked giving them all what they wanted
Hoping for sudden acceptance
Are you happy now I thought as I hung myself
Having to live with the truth
Yet living a lie to keep the voices happy and at bay
I wrestled with a heart so heavy
It would soon burst
And yet I held firm keeping hope to make them all happy
The glass around my heart broke suddenly
Leaving the scar open to fester and seep out.
Now on the chopping block my heart again was susceptible
They knew that and took advantage of it.
Stomped, jumped, spat and mauled every shot was a cheap one
They got what they wanted and thought they left no survivors.
But they were wrong
These scars on my heart sealed over
They’re beginning to heal with a vengeance.
Once they’re healed all their power over me will be gone
My heart will then overcome.
Not everyone can pour their feelings out like that. You have turned ugliness into beauty.
Your too kind my friend!
No… it makes what I do here on my blog seem sort of shallow. You might actually be helping people overcome adversity… I make jokes.
Well thank you for your insight. I can only hope that someone can be helped through my trials and words.
You sure have a better shot at it than I do…
Life here on earth is a rough ride – more difficult for some than others for reasons I don’t pretend to understand. My hope lies in what has been promised for the future. Thanks for sharing from your heart. God bless.
Never silence the voices,they may be voices from a very distant past that need to be heard.
So true!
Very true! Thx for ur comment
Awesome. Chills. Cheering you on! Thanks for the follow. Looking forward to reading more of your blog.